Getting Back To Myself

Well, since taking some time off in order to re-evaluate my life and goals and dig out of the depression that I was going through, I am finally getting back to my old new self.  I don't want to be as before, I want to be made new. So, here is the plan...

1.) Get back to FLYing with my friends at the FLYLady Facebook Page and the Healthy FlyGirls Support Group Page.
2.) Even though I utterly failed at the 90 Day Challenge, continue reading through the bible until I am done.
3.) Read something that contributes to my Self-Improvement every day. This will be a new series of posts entitled 'What Am I Reading'.
4.) Work every day on building my home businesses with Scentsy, Homemade Gourmet & Affiliate Marketing via my blogs, network marketing, etc.
5.) Continue to bless my family and not be a martyr.
6.) Count it all Joy.

Thank you to everyone who has stuck by me through the craziness of this year so far.  I love you all!

Falling Off The Flutter-Wagon

Doesn't it always seem that when everything seems to be going along smoothly, you're feeling good about things and your accomplishments that the devil has a way of throwing a wrench in the wheel of life?

Well, that's what happened to me yesterday. 

I accomplished so much on Monday.  I felt good.  Got my whole bedroom clean and comfortable.  It was such a task!  But, I did it!  With the help of my friends over at the FlyLady Facebook Page.  8 hours straight of calling FlyLady Bingo and then a couple hours afterwards and I had amazing results:

I went to bed that night feeling very good about myself and my home and my family. It had just been a wonderful day.  The kids were home from school, I was off of work, nobody had fought or fussed.  It was just all good.

The calm before the storm, I suppose.

Yesterday I had a bomb dropped on me and I am struggling through the debris of my life once more. Someone hurt me and hurt me deeply.  I feel a million things right now.  Betrayed, Unloved, Unattractive, Angry, Disillusioned... these are just a few of them.  My head and my heart are at odds. I'm trying to keep to my routines.  I'm trying to be Thankful in the Midst of the Storm, and I am.  It's just that the thankful feelings are gettind drowned by my tears that just refuse to stop.  God talks about the wellsprings of the heart.. well, mine are coming out my eyes.  *sigh*

My motivation is miniscule.  My home and emotions are in cahoots and have exploded all over the place.  I have to get up and get moving, but getting out of bed and putting yesterday's clothes back on was an accomplishment in itself.

There are things to be thankful for.  I need to concentrate on those.
There are sinks to shine. And I can do anything for 15 minutes, right?

I did manage to make my bed this morning.  I did manage to make the boys' their breakfast. I did manage to get my coffee on.  I can do this.  I will do this.

Please, God, HELP me do this.

The Joy Of The Lord Is My Strength.
All Things Work Together For The Good Of Those Who Love God.
He Knows The Plans That He Has For Me ...
He Leads Me Beside Still Waters...

No matter who does NOT love me... My GOD LOVES ME!
Their loss.

Excuse me, I have to catch that Flutter-Wagon.  It's time for me to start FLY-ing again.
(FLY - Finally. Loving. YOURSELF!)

The FlyLady's Beginner's BabySteps

I have been doing the FlyLady's Beginner BabySteps for 16 days now.  I've kept up with my progress on my other blog WAHMto5.  While I was not able to do a step a day and sometimes I did two in one day, I feel pretty good about my progress.  My house is looking better.  Not perfect, but better.  My kids are starting to chip in and so is JT. I would not be humiliated if someone came over, but would probably have to do at least a 15 minute room rescue. I would not cringe if they had to use our bathroom.  It's all good. 

The support and encouragement that the other FlyGirls at the FlyLady Facebook Page have been immeasurably helpful with keeping me on track.  I'm so glad that I found that page through my mom's Facebook. If it weren't for them, I probably would have given up as I've done before.

Today I ordered Body Clutter, Sink Reflections and SideTracked Home Executives from Amazon.  Can't wait till they get here!

Don't have them yet?? Check Them Out Here!

For the New Year, I will be working on becoming healthier with the addition of excercise and better food choices.  I will be recording that journey here as well as my continuous journey of blessing my home with FlyLady techniques.http://www.FlyLady.net .

I hope that you enjoy this blog and are inspired by my experiences!