However, my mind is in no means company ready and I'm trying like hell to get it back on track. This past six weeks or so has been a constant battle for me with many, many different issues hitting me all at once and I am struggling to keep my focus. I admit, I have lost any type of focus for a while. There were days when I could only lie in bed and submit to the numbness. There were days when I could barely get up with the children to see them off to school. There were days when all I could do was cry. There was even a day in which I cut off all my hair.
I have not been online much. I seem to have lost most of my interest for much of anything and when I did try to accomplish something, all that happened was that I would drift away and leave it unfinished and so I quit attempting to accomplish much of anything.
I don't really know what to do except to take each day as it comes and see if I can muddle through it somehow. And somehow, another day always comes.
While this post sounds horribly depressing and raw, I know that there is at least still some small spark within me, although I am having trouble tapping into it.
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